レイラ (Reira) – Leila

from S album.

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Deviating from the usual by changing hair colors and such
I create “myself” in this way
Even if others see, even if others don’t see
My “self”‘s worth is constantly being compared

Just who can see the real “me”?

To constantly be perfect
Is impossible
Make me cry, make me smile
Look closely at the real “me”
“Beauty is what’s found within”
I don’t believe that
I mean, if that’s the case
Who would want “me”?

Following the safe path, blending in with others
Smiling unabashedly without feeling it
Being able to put on a front
My “self”‘s worth has gotten lost

Just who can see the real “me”?

To constantly be fair
Is impossible
Make me cry, make me smile
Look closely at the real “me”
“Beauty is what’s found within”
I don’t understand that
Why would you want
A “me” like that?

I want to start over again
I’d rather accept my weakness
You won’t leave me alone, right?
Will it be easier to abandon my pride?

I’ve realized that this is my true “self”
Just who can see this real “me”?

To constantly be perfect
Is impossible
Make me cry, make me smile
Look closely at the real “me”
“Beauty is what’s found within”
I don’t believe that
I mean, if that’s the case
Who would want “me”?

——

ROOMAJI

Kami no iro toka sukoshi zureta kansei
Sou yatte “jibun” wo tsukuri ageru
Dare ga mitetemo daremo mite inakutemo
“Watashi” no kachi wa tsune ni hikaku sareru

Hontou no “watashi” wo mite kureteru no wa dare?

Tsune ni kanpeki de iyou nante
Muri na hanashi nan desu
Nakasete warawasete
Motto chanto “watashi” wo mite
Nakami wo miteru da nante
Sonna no shinjinai kara
Datte sonna “watashi” wa
Dare ga hoshii no?

Hito ni awasete bunan na michi wo susunde
Omotte mo nai no ni angai waraeru no
Honne to tatemae wo umaku tsukaeru to
“Watashi” no kachi ga yukue fumei ni naru

Hontou no “watashi” wo mite kureteru no wa dare?

Tsuneni heikin de iyou nante
Muri na hanashi nan desu
Nakasete warawasete
Motto chanto “watashi” wo mite
Nakami wo miteru da nante
Sonna no wakaranai kara
Nande sonna “watashi” wo
Kimi wa hoshii no?

Mou ichido yari naoshite mitai yo
Mou isso yowasa wo mitomete
Hitori ni shinaide yo ne
Puraido wo sutetara raku kana?

Sonna honshin ga “jibun” da to kizuita no
Hontou no “watashi” wo mite kureteru no wa dare?

Tsune ni kanpeki de iyou nante
Muri na hanashi nan desu
Nakasete warawasete
Motto chanto “watashi” wo mite
Nakami wo miteru da nante
Sonna no shinjinai kara
Datte sonna “watashi” wa
Dare ga hoshii no?

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KANJI

髪の色とか少しずれた感性
そうやって『自分』を作り上げる
誰が見てても　誰も見ていなくても
『わたし』の価値は常に比較される

本当の『わたし』を見てくれてるのは誰？

常に完璧でいようなんて
無理な話なんです
泣かせて笑わせて
もっとちゃんと『わたし』を見て
中身を見てるだなんて
そんなの信じないから
だってそんな『わたし』は
誰が欲しいの？

人に合わせて無難な道を進んで
思ってもないのに案外笑えるの
本音と建前をうまく使えると
『わたし』の価値が行方不明になる

本当の『わたし』を見てくれてるのは誰？

常に平均でいようなんて
無理な話なんです
泣かせて笑わせて
もっとちゃんと『わたし』を見て
中身を見てるだなんて
そんなの分からないから
なんでそんな『わたし』を
きみは欲しいの？

もう一度やり直してみたいよ
もういっそ弱さを認めて
ひとりにしないでよね
プライドを捨てたら楽かな？

そんな本心が『自分』だと気付いたの
本当の『わたし』を見つけてくれるのは誰？

常に完璧でいようなんて
無理な話なんです
泣かせて笑わせて
もっとちゃんと『わたし』を見て
中身を見てるだなんて
そんなの信じないから
だってそんな『わたし』は
誰が欲しいの？