ワガママ (Wagamama) – Selfish
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The words I spoke to you that day
I should have kept them hidden within me
I won’t lie, won’t give excuses
Snow melting on my cheeks
Though I don’t desire days with no answer
I turn my back on the reason for my tears
Why is it that I’m searching only for smiles
So much more now as compared to the past?
Unchanging emotions and changing scenery
If I had voiced my last selfish demand that day
You would be perplexed over the answer, right?
Future, don’t overlap now
The winter-colored shoes you gave me
Bring color beautifully to me again this year
Lining up proof that I’m alright, I walk
As the snow soaks in
Where are you now? It’s alright not to contact me?
I want to know, I’m free to find out
But the words I failed to speak
Won’t disappear into the nightsky
Stopped emotions and unstoppable time
I kept my last selfish demand a secret
Because you are someone who won’t lie
So kindness rips us apart
Don’t answer, I just want to tell you
I don’t need anything more
But humans are surely needy creatures
And I’ll want you more and more
Unchanging emotions pile up on the scenery
Though I wanted to voice a small selfish demand now
You just quietly embrace me
As if embracing me, right by your side
Embracing me
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ROOMAJI
Ano hi anata ni ii kaketa kotoba
Watashi no naka ni kakushite yokatta
Uso tsuitenai yo iiwake mo nai yo
Hoho ni tokeru yuki
Kotae no nai hibi motome mo shinai no ni
Namida no wake ni senaka mukete
Ima yori kako kara egao bakari
Sagasu no wa doushite kana
Kawaranai omoi to kawari yuku keshiki
Saigo no wagamama wo ano hi tsugetetara
Anata wa kotae wo mayotteita desho
Mirai mada kasanaranakute ii
Anata ga kureta fuyu iro no kutsu
Kotoshi mo watashi wo kirei ni irodoru no
Daijoubu no akashi narabete arukeba
Yuki ga nurasu yo
Ima wa doko ni iru no? Renraku shinakute ii yo?
Ki ni naru no ga shumi na no wa jiyuu desho
Demo yappa iisobireta kotoba wa
Yozora ni wa kienai mitai
Todometa omoi to tomaranai jikan
Saigo no wagamama wo naisho ni shiteru no wa
Anata wa uso sae tsukenai hito dakara
Yasashisa ga futari wo kiri saku yo
Kotae wa iwanaide tsutaetai dake da yo
Sore ijou wa iranai
Dakedo hito wa kitto yoku fukai mono da ne
Motto motto hoshiku naru
Kawaranai omoi ga furi tsumoru keshiki
Chiisana wagamama wo ima tsugeyou toshita no ni
Anata wa tada sotto dakishimete kureru
Soba ni ite no watashi wo tsutsumu you ni
Tsutsumu you ni
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KANJI
あの日 あなたに 言いかけた言葉
わたしの中に 隠してよかった
嘘ついてないよ 言い訳もないよ
頬に溶ける雪
答えのない日々 求めもしないのに
涙のわけに背中向けて
今より 過去から笑顔ばかり
探すのはどうしてかな
変わらない思いと 変わりゆく景色
最後のワガママをあの日告げてたら
あなたは答えを迷っていたでしょ
未来 まだ重ならなくていい
あなたがくれた冬色の靴
今年もわたしをキレイに彩るの
大丈夫の証 並べて歩けば
雪が濡らすよ
今はどこにいるの？連絡しなくていいよ？
気になるのが趣味なのは自由でしょ
でもやっぱ いいそびれた言葉は
夜空には消えないみたい
とどめた思いと止まらない時間
最後のワガママを内緒にしてるのは
あなたは嘘さえつけない人だから
優しさがふたりを 切り裂くよ
答えは言わないで 伝えたいだけだよ
それ以上はいらない
だけど人はきっと 欲深いものだね
もっともっと 欲しくなる
変わらない思いが 降り積もる景色
小さなワガママを 今告げようとしたのに
あなたはただそっと抱きしめてくれる
そばにいてのわたしを包むように
つつむように
