from Duty album.
——
When I see someone less fortunate
Than myself, I feel comforted
When I see someone happier
Than myself, I suddenly feel irritated
But surely, I mean, sometimes
I can’t help but notice how
Pathetic I look, and it clashes with my reality
Just how should I think?
What should I say?
You were the first person
Who tried to understand
This side of me
There is no way a person can live alone
In order to prevent themselves from hurting others
If I can think of myself as a sacrifice
Then I just have to be prepared
To pretend till the very end, even should I lose everything
What are you wishing for tomorrow?
Do you think we can overcome
Even the longest nights
Extending endlessly into darkness?
I wish you’d tell me someday
Just how should I think?
What should I say?
They praise me highly
Am envious of me
But I don’t know if they even understand
Just how should I think?
What should I say?
You are surely the only person
Who really understands
This side of me
——
ROOMAJI
Jibun yori mo fukou na hito wo
Mite wa sukoshi nagusame rare
Jibun yori mo shiawase na hito
Mitsuketa nara kyuu ni asetteru
Dakedo kitto dakara tokidoki
Dou shiyou mo naku mijime na sugata ni
Ki ga tsuite genjitsu ni butsukaru
Watashi wa nani wo omoeba ii
Watashi wa nante ittara ii
Konna watashi no koto
Wakarou to suru nante
Kimi ga hajimete datta
Hitori toshite kizu mo tsukezu ni
Ikiteku nante dekiru wake mo nai
Giseisha da nante omou nara
Subete nakushitemo kamawanai kakugo de
Saigo made enjikireba ii
Kimi ga nani wo asu he to negai
Kuraku tsuzuku donna ni nagai
Yoru sae mo koete
Ikou to omoeru no ka
Itsuka kikasete hoshii
Watashi wa nani wo omoeba ii
Watashi wa nante ittara ii
Motehaya sareta tte
Urayamareta tte
Wakatteru no ka sae wakaranai
Watashi wa nani wo omoeba ii
Watashi wa nante ittara ii
Konna watashi no koto
Wakatte kureru no nante
Kitto kimi dake dakara
——
KANJI
自分よりも不幸なヒトを
見ては少し 慰められ
自分よりも幸せなヒト
見つけたなら 急に焦ってる
だけどきっと だから時々
どうしようもなく 惨めな姿に
気が付いて 現実にぶつかる
私は何を想えばいい
私は何て言ったらいい
こんな私の事
解ろうとするなんて
君が初めてだった
ひとりとして 傷も付けずに
生きてくなんて 出来るわけもない
犠牲者だなんて思うなら
全て失くしても 構わない覚悟で
最後まで演じきればいい
君が何を明日へと願い
暗く続くどんなに長い
夜さえも超えて
行こうと思えるのか
いつか聞かせて欲しい
私は何を想えばいい
私は何て言ったらいい
もてはやされたって
羨まれたって
解ってるのかさえ解らない
私は何を想えばいい
私は何て言ったらいい
こんな私の事
解ってくれるのなんて
きっと君だけだから
